I was sitting in my car at snowflex today. Just listening to worship music and thinking about life and God and the meaning of it all. (I can be a deep thinker) It occurred to me that the same God who created the beautiful mountains that I was seeing and the trees and animals that reside in them, created me and every other person in this world, in His image. He knew my name before time began. He knows who I've been, who I am, and who I will be in the future. And even though He knows everything about me, He still loves me. He loves me through my flaws. He loves me when I make mistakes. When I run from Him, He draws me back in through His love, kindness, and grace. He never leaves. His love never fails. He's always there to catch me when I fall. He reprimands me when it's needed but it's always through love and He always has my best interest in mind. There is absolutely nothing I could do to make Him stop loving me.
So why do I seek fulfillment in other things that I know will leave me empty? Why do I ever doubt Him? It says clearly in His Word that He is faithful. "He is faithful and just to forgive our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness." -John 1:9 But why? Why does He care about me when there are millions of other people in the world? So many other people who are far more important that I am. He loves us all equally though. He loves us with an unconditional love that is beyond any human capability to understand. All because we are made in His image. This is what sets us apart from everything else that He created. If He provides for the animals, How much more will He provide for us? How can I doubt that He will take care of me when He takes care of the creatures that we, as humans, have been made higher than? It comes down to trust. Complete and total trust. I will admit that this is something I struggle with. I have a hard time trusting people that I can touch and see and hear. How can I trust God when I can't do any of those things? When none of my senses show that He is real. But if I could see Him, then it wouldn't be faith. If I could see Him, then He would be just like any other person that I can see. It wouldn't take the trust that require complete abandonment to what seems logical. God defies logic. He defies all reason. But He IS logic and reason. He is the only one who makes sense. I would much rather believe in a God who made me than to believe that I just appeared from nowhere or that I evolved from a monkey.
Ultimately I believe in God because He has never failed. He never will. People will ALWAYS fall short. We always hurt each other. We always mess up. God never will. He is perfect. He can't be anything but perfect. And even though He is the perfect spotless God that should want nothing to do with us, He loves us. He sent His only son, Himself in the flesh, to die a horrendous death so that we can commune with Him. So even when I can't feel Him, I know He's there. When I think I am all alone in the world, He's there to hold my hand and hold me steady. When I doubt, He's always right there to remind me why I believe in Him in the first place and to show me that Yes, He is so very real.
The God of the universe loves me, cares for me, has a plan for me, and will never, ever leave my side.
But guess what? The same applies for you. It just takes faith and trust in giving your life to Him. Belief isn't enough. Even the demons believe in Him. But they can't have a relationship with Him. We can. It's not difficult. It's really simple actually. When I asked Jesus to rescue me, I just was completely honest with Him. I remember exactly what I prayed. Here's what I said; "Hey, Jesus. I'm sorry. I am so so sorry. I have lived a complete and total lie. I can't do this anymore. I don't want to do this anymore. I'm ready to give up on life. I don't want my life anymore. I want YOU to take it. You do what You want with it cause I'm just gonna keep messing it up. Take my life. It's Yours. Whatever You want me to do. I'm Yours."
That's what I said, but everyone is different. There are no special words to bring salvation. Jesus just wants you. Not bits and pieces, but all of you. Every little bit. It takes complete surrender. It seems risky and scary at first, but I can promise that a life without Christ is a life that is never complete.
I love you. Jesus loves you more.
Beautiful... all I can really say.
ReplyDeleteI loved reading this, and I love you!
But yes, Jesus loves you more! <3